Dreams of Life

Motivation

I was talking to my best friend today and what were we talking about? Motivation. What motivates people? Why can't she seem to get motivated over anything? What's my motivation? Why do I want to do good in school? Why do I want to have good friends? I want approval.
Some people are motivated by people.
Some people are motivated by love.
Some people are motivated by money.
Some people are motivated by a sense of accomplishment.
Some people are motivated by hate.
Some people are motivated by dreams.
Some people are motivated by wanting to life there life to the fullest.
Some people are motivated because they want people to know they care.
Some people are motivated by approval.
And then there are people like me - I am motivate by God and my love for my Lord and SAvior Jesus Christ and want approval from those who love, especially my best friend Megan and my parents. And of course, I want lto be doing what God wants me to do.
But what if you life is constantly full of people who seem to not care about you? People who provide food, shelter, and clothing,and its not like they beat you or yell at you all the time but they just dn't seem to care about your well-being at all? They don't ask you how your day was, or they don't try to talk to you about how your schoolwork is going. They couldn't care less it sems almost as if you woere dead or alive? What would motivate you then? And your friends that don't sem to care... they aren't really friends at all.
She sees Christianity as a religion, something that consists of going to church on Sudnay and not the relationship involved... I wish there weas some way to convey to her that it's about the relationship and not just the importance of church. tIt's good to have Christian friends and go to church but it's not about the church. It's about a relationship with God and Jesus.
Here is our conversatin.

Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Hey Nicole
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
how goes it?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
hi
NightmareForbiden promise says:
and good
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that's good... how's Megan?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
she is good
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that's good
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
is she home?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
yea
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
doot doot... can I talk to her for a moment?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
she is playing kingdom hearts 2
NightmareForbiden promise says:
anyways here she is
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
while tel her I don't care what she's doing
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
good
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
hello Megan
NightmareForbiden promise says:
hi
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Kingdom hearts 2 huh?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I didn't know you had the second one
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Just got it this weekend
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
figures
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
.... you and your video games
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yup
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I'm obessed over them
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
apparently so.... so did you know I'm home in less then two weeks?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
No. you'll be coming over here then right?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I hope so... I mean, school is done in two weeks and I'm home for good
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
while for the summer anyway
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Lucky
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I guess
NightmareForbiden promise says:
^-^ I still gotta be in school till the end of june
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I have signed everyone's yearbook in the school - literly everyone's
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I know but wait til you go to college
NightmareForbiden promise says:
lol
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
then you will get to be off at April
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
....
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I don't think I'm going to college.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
It's right out of high school and a job with me
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I hope to get a job in Moose Jaw this summer.... or maybe in Regina... cause maybe my aunt will let me live with them if I can find a job in REgina
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I think you should go to college
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Cool
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I think it would be good for you
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I wouldn't be able too
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I'm no good at school
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
so.... neither was I until I actually started trying in grade 12
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
then I found I wasn't that bad at it
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I actually did my homewok
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that makes a lot of difference
NightmareForbiden promise says:
While I'm trying, but I have issues getting motivated. I think somethings missing in my life. I can't seem to concentrate at school
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Maybe I need a true socail life ne?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
maybe... I don't know... I don't think it's that
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Something wrong with my brain anyway... >.<
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I dono
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I've been a little too confused or something like that.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
you need something you think is worth it... you need to be doing it for someone... not just yourself... your parents don't seem to care.... I have someone I'm doing this for and that person is God..... I'm doing this for God... find someone who you want admiration from and draw motivation off of making them proud - even though I already am proud of you
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that's what i think....
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I dunno
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Well... I don't really have anyone like that. (besides maybe you) I don't really need people to think highly of me
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I've never really been a true people person
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
i know that....
NightmareForbiden promise says:
School isn't much of a concern to me. I think that's my problem. I just don't care about school.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
All my focus is on my books
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I think I need to get my priorities straightened out.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
yeah, I think so.... now i'm not trying to be mean but I'm being completely honest in asking this question.... what exactly is your chance of getting your books published? I'm not trying to diminsh your hopes, but honestly it's one of the hardest things to do these days is to get your books published
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I know. I never said it would be easy. If following your dreams was that easy. Everyone would be happy.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
But It's my only hope.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
My art, and my writing is all I have
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that' snot true
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that's not all you have
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I can do other things, sure. But my heart isn't in it.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I'm failing half my classes right now, because I just don't feel like it.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
*sighs*
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
While you have to start "feeling like it" it's almost as if your whole life revolves around video games, movies, art and writing and that's not right.... you need constant interaction with people - people who you care about and who care about you... you need to feel loved and wanted
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I got nobody like that here
NightmareForbiden promise says:
My parents are my parents. I don't need them, not really. I need friends. but. They don't really care, the ones here anyway.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
If I were to leave and never come back, they'd miss me for a few days then go back to being their normal selves, back to what they did before they met me.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I don't think that's true
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I don't believe that for a second
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
and do you want to know why?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
....
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Look at Paige for example..... look at her.... she never comes back but her mom talks to her on the phone all the time and you even go and visit her.... don't you think that's how it would be with you?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
They, pretty much ignore me now. Unless I have something of intrest. Debie and Amber don't really care too much about me.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I think so.... I think deep down they really do care about you or why would they keep you in the first place?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
You can go to any hospital in the country and just drop of a baby no questions asked.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
But that's family. I know they love me. But they,... I don't need family. Family is just family.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I need friends that care about me. That actually TRY to come over ever now and then.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
they loved you when you were a baby and probably dreamed about all the potential that you had, and now maybe deep inside them they are wondering what happend to that potential, what happened to the little girl they thought would grow up to be amazing. What if they are just disappointed in you and don't know how else to show it?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
while Im sorry
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
your family is important
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
no matter how much you don't think so
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
you would't be alive without your parents
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Not to me. Maybe I'll miss them. But I know I can live with out them. I'm greatful to them for everthing they've done, sacriviced for my sake. but it's not enough.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I need...... something else
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I........
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I don't know.........
NightmareForbiden promise says:
........
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I'm so confused! ........
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
need something else? it feels like there is a hole in your life that you can't fill?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Well. I gtg soon. My sisters hovering over me wanting on.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
so what?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
who cares?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
That's 'bout it
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I dno
NightmareForbiden promise says:
My sis is annoying.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
a hole that you can't fill?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
tell her its important
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
that's what I felt too
NightmareForbiden promise says:
There's something missing
NightmareForbiden promise says:
yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I used to feel that
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
bu then I found something that filled the hole
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
put a picture on display please of you.... Jen wants to se your pic?
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I did
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I don't have a pic.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
okay
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I did find something that filled that hole for me
NightmareForbiden promise says:
That's cool...
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
You want to know what filled the hole in my life Megan?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Sure
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
The day I found Jesus Christ made that hole go away.... it's not there anymore, it's filled with love and grace and peace, it makes me feel wanted and loved.... and appreciated
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Jesus did that for me
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
and he can do that for you too
NightmareForbiden promise says:
But I'm not relgious.
I wanna go. Just get up and leave. See the country. See trees and mountians and lakes and.... I just wanna get out of this trap..... *stares at the ground*
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
religion has nothing to do with it
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Still. I don't think that'll do it for me. I've been down that path, and sure it may be good in all but, I can't be tied down to having to go to church on sundays, or being active in church at all.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
you don't have to go to church on Sunday all the time... you don't have to be active in the churh.... I'm not. You don't have to be tied to a church... although Christian friends isn't a good idea, I'm telling you religion doesn't have anything to do with it... it's the relationship... the relationship with Jesus Christ that makes you a Christian, not going to church on Sunday
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Christian friends is a good idea
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Maybe. But I don't need that right now. I know I don't. I need someone here, now. Not a spirt. maybe later in life but not now. My heart is crying for someone to love. Someone who can hold me. I dno.....
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I still think that that's the way to go, that Jesus is the way and he will give you the love and hold you and he will always be there fore you.... I'm going to pray for you though... but I won't badger you about it
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
its your choice, and I love you no matter what
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I know....
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Next year, I think you should come and stay with me for like a week
NightmareForbiden promise says:
That might be good.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
during a school break
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
your school break
NightmareForbiden promise says:
yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
not miine, because they are at different times
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I know it will be good
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah and I can't go missing school
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
exactly, you can hang out and eat cafeteria food (which is not that bad) and come sit with me through classes and sleep lots
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
and just get relaxed
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah that'swhat I need. rest.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
uh-huh i think so, and that's why you are going to next year if I have to pay for it all myself
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Okay...
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
no,I"m serious
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
bus ticket, your food while your here and board
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I will
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Thank you.
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I hope I'll be able to come
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
you WILL be able to come
NightmareForbiden promise says:
Yeah. *smiles*
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I will see to that
NightmareForbiden promise says:
yeah
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
way up high
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
there's a land that I've heard of once in a lullaby
NightmareForbiden promise says:
My sister's badgering me again
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I should go.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
fine, if you must, but I'll talk to you soon, miss you and love you lots
NightmareForbiden promise says:
love ya too. byebye
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
bye
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
hey wait
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
can I ask you something?
NightmareForbiden promise says:
yeah
NightmareForbiden promise says:
sure
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
do you mind if I post this conversation on my blog? I thought I should ask first
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
I won't if you don't want me to
NightmareForbiden promise says:
okay go ahead.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
thanx
NightmareForbiden promise says:
I'll talk to you later.
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
okay
NightmareForbiden promise says:
byebye
Kim - When you say you love me for a moment there's noone else alive. says:
byebye

I don't know what to say? Did I say these things wrong? Were thes things I was supposed to say or was I supposed to leave them for a later time? I don't know, I love her so much... just so much and I wish I could fix herproblems for her... but I will try and lead her towards the Father... he can fix anything and I know that he loves her more then I could even imagine so I will just place my concerns and her in the hands of my heavenly Father.

Dear Lord Jesus, I pray for my best friend. I pray that you will give her the love and caring that she deserves so much but isn't gettin from her parents and siblings.... I pray that you will let her know that I am always there for her no matter what and that ou are as well. Thank you Jesus for giveing me her friendship. I love hser so much God.
I pray this in your name, Jesus
Amen

posted by Gavers @ 3:53 p.m.